Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Life and Railroad Tracks

Things haven't been so easy lately. The strangest part about it is that it's not so much to do with the move. I really like where we live and things have settled nicely. But life has changed and I am still struggling to catch up, which weirdly feels like slowing down. Cryptic right?

God certainly opened a door for our move, and it's a beautifully sunny and gorgeous door. A door that has provided more calm and more time in my life. Not only that, this move has really gotten our finances in order. Over the last few months I have been able to do amazing things to get our financial stability up. It's been a pretty amazing transformation and I can see a light at the end of that tunnel. A financial tunnel we have been in for quite a long time. Money is a whole different value in our lives now, and while I miss having more of it, I am so thankful for everything given. It's a story that proves God exists and He shows up through our financial health continuously. Pretty amazing in my eyes. God has brought us a long way!

But personally I have been struggling. This week my eyes have been opened to what I haven't been able to see. And you know what, the eye opening part is always the start to a new road. A call to action. Sometimes even God's push. Because I know that He loves me and that He speaks to me all of the time. But sometimes He needs to be louder than others, and right now is one of those times. He has been in my head constantly over the last few weeks. And when He is louder, you must meet him there. In words, in actions, and in pain. So that's where I am. I am going to have to meet Him, ask from Him, share with Him, and trust Him.

I read this little tidbit from an email this morning:

He explained that life is not a roller coaster with up’s and down’s, but rather a set of railroad tracks where we endure suffering and blessing simultaneously.

I feel this. We all suffer from different afflictions, through our own circumstances, and in our own ways. I only share this because maybe you need to meet Him there as well, and if you do, just know you are not alone.